The Rain

So, God gives us what we need all the time. I have a habit of not slowing down for anything. Full speed ahead. Got a problem? Let's make a list of things that need to be done to fix it and then let's get going. So, in my current circumstances that is what I started doing until I was brought to an abrupt stop. A physical limitation was what came first. After chemo my body was sent out of wack hormonally, but last week everything started up again with a vengeance, cramps, depression, the works. I was laid up for almost a week. Next came the rain. Now it is June in California. We are supposed to have warm springtime days with the ability to enjoy all God's creation has to offer, but clouds, thunder, and huge amounts of water falling from the sky have also kept me down. I long to get away and do, but God is making me sit and be still. They say that grief is a process that you have to allow yourself experience so that you can work through it, but I don't think I want to naturally do that. I want to get on with things. My Heavenly Father is forcing me to do it for my own good, whether I want to or not. That's the thing about God, He knows what we need all the time, even when we don't realize it ourselves.