adjustment disorder

Who wouldn't have an "adjustment disorder" when dealing with the loss of a marriage, husband, future, etc. Yes I guess I am having an adjustment problem. This past year has been riddled with things I have had to become adjusted to. Breast cancer, two kids moving out, husband deploying to Iraq, the discovery of him having an affair, another daughter getting ready to leave for college. In one year the size of our household will have gone from 6 to 2. That's a lot of adjustment, and not just for me, but for my kids too. I am still grieving a lot of this. There are nights when it's just me in the house when the kids are at a friends, it can get very lonely. I sit and sometimes don't know what to do with myself. My mind gets going to places that it shouldn't and I have to reel it in. No sense going certain places in my mind because it isn't going to get me anywhere but upset. It is difficult though because the sadness just wants to take over, the feeling of rejection, the hurt, and still the shock of it all. Tonight is one of those nights, fighting depression. Trying to adjust to my new reality isn't easy.